by John Owlheart,
During my seven years in the deep end of the spiritual pool, I have been through more deaths than I can remember, but evidently an equal number of rebirths because here I stand. The past 10 days, coinciding with the Lions Gate, have been particularly intense.
Last night was perhaps the most intense and deep death and rebirth I’ve ever been through. And what made it so intense was that I wasn’t just clearing my own stuff, but apparently took on the core human wound of abandonment. And my soul retrievaldidn’t just involve my soul parts, but was Galactic in nature, across multiple timelines. Going through the death/rebirth/reset cycle yet again recalled a post I wrote just before last year’ Lions Gate:
A couple of years ago I was introduced to the torus model of consciousness, developed by Itzhak Bentov. A torus is similar to a donut but rather than having an empty central “hole”, the torus folds in upon itself and all points along its surface converge together into a zero-dimensional point at the center. The torus allows a vortex of energy to form which bends back along itself and re-enters itself. It ‘inside-outs’, continuously flowing back into itself. Thus, the energy of a torus, of consciousness, is continually refreshing itself, continually influencing itself.
All Toroids have a black hole at one end and a white hole at the other. Black holes suck in energy and white holes emit it. And at the intersection of the black hole and white hole lies what is called the Zero Point Energy Field. Consciousness constantly refreshes itself and stays in balance as the energy is sucked in by the black hole, cleansed of harmful, “not self” frequencies at Zero Point, and then emitted again by the white hole.
So what if each of my deaths has been me experiencing getting sucked into the black hole, and each rebirth being re- emitted from the white hole?
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Time and space are human constructs, and serve to slow things down so this human mind and these human bodies can comprehend a limitless, timeless Universe. So every time, in the natural flow of my consciousness, I approach the black hole, my reptilian brain senses danger, an existential threat, and I kick into fight or flight. Of course, I lose the battle, flow thru Zero Point kicking and screaming (and suffering), only to pop out of the white hole naked and new, my authentic self once again. And then the cycle repeats itself, including yet again another death and rebirth.
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Someone once told me, about spiritual evolution, ascension, “John, you can’t speed this up, but you sure can slow it down”. My resistance to “death by black hole” has certainly caused me a great deal of suffering, and definitely slowed the natural process of my conscious evolution down.
Things are moving so fast now that I can not only experience the natural “self clearing” flow of consciousness, but appreciate the necessity for me to get out of the way and allow the pure potential of divine will to take over. I’m still working on that one.
I am so blessed.